I won’t lie — I’ve been avoiding this blog like the plague. Why? I adore this blog, but it was beginning to feel like an obligation rather than a want.
My life is at another standstill. While I enjoy my job (and the money that comes along with it), I feel like life is becoming routine. I feel like I’m missing my purpose. There is nothing left to look forward to. My first wedding anniversary has come and gone; children are too far off in the future that it’s not even a topic of discussion. What’s next? It’s a question that I’ve been asking myself.
When I dropped out of college in my second semester, I figured I’d go back the next fall. Well, that time came and went as did the following spring semester. Here it is, fall once again, and I feel the need to go back. I feel the tug at my heartstrings as I walk by the school supplies or happen upon Facebook statuses mentioning class registration. (I’m not even kidding.) I miss doing homework and feeling like I have a career to look forward to.
What I do now (secretarial work, in simple terms) isn’t what I want for a career. I once thought it was, but it isn’t. I want to be a counselor. I want to be a grief counselor for children and teens, specifically. I want to be someone a child can come to when their grandparents die. For this to happen, though, I must earn a degree. It’s not just a need anymore; I want it.
Remember when I was planning to go back to school only to have my school say that I owed over $1000 (even though I had thought I only owed $224)? I was discouraged. I lost hope. I quickly gave up (because I didn’t have the time or the energy to fix it).
That all changed when Husband said he’d be registering for classes this semester. I contacted my school, and much to my relief, they informed me that it was all a huge mistake on their part … I only owe the $224, then I can go back to school. Then I can take my life back.
I don’t know if I’ll go back to school this semester. (If so, classes start in a couple weeks, so I’d need to get in gear). I’ll definitely be back by next semester. I feel relieved. Even though I won’t even get my associates degree until 2011 (at the earliest), I’m ready to move forward.
And maybe the topic of children won’t be too far off after that.
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Bravo for moving forward. So many people get stuck in a rut, working a job they don’t love and feeling unfulfilled. Thank you for not being one of those people – hopefully you’ll inspire others to take steps toward what they want to do!
Good for you! Sometimes it’s hard to make decisions like these but way to go for recognizing what will fulfill you and going after it.
Take it one step at a time – no need to feel overwhelmed about school – it’s not life or death
Good for you! An education is so important and something NO ONE can ever take away from you!! Good luck with going back to school, I’m looking forward to reading all about it
Congrats Megan! I love school, so it makes me so happy to hear of someone going back, especially when it’s what they want to do.
Good for you, hon. Even if you don’t go back this semester- two weeks is SOON! You will. And it will feel fantastic.
Best of luck! It’s not always easy to turn a want or need into reality, but I wish you all the absolute best in doing so. Keep your goal in mind and hopefully you can go far.
This is my first time stumbling over here, so keep blogging – and stop avoiding – so I can keep reading!
Aw that’s so great!!! I’m actually taking a semester off this fall because I’m feeling like school is all my life is and that I need to find my purpose in something else. At least until I start nursing this spring. I’m so excited for you!!!
getting back on track, no matter how you do it, is always a great feeling. It can be hard, but it’s well worth it. Can’t wait to hear more about it!
I so love the rush I get from starting something new. I’m so excited for you! You can do it. (:
YAY! Going to school is so freakin fun. I’m a nerd like that too – I want to go back for a grad degree so bad. I feel like everyone I know is in grad school right now.
And I also firmly believe in constantly having goals in life and something to look forward to. Congrats!