I’m stressed.
There, I said it. Honestly, I’m not even sure why I’m stressed. I guess it could be the fact that my hours at work are flip-flopping each week. Or the fact that I feel like I have little time to relax. Or the fact that I procrastinate, letting all of my school assignments pile up until the day before they’re due. (I still hold firm that I work best under pressure.) Or the fact that I made a C on my first English paper. (Okay, maybe I don’t work best under pressure.)
Both nights of Tuesday and Wednesday were my breaking point(s). I arrived home after work (I’m on the 3pm-11pm shift this week), and Husband was busy doing homework. He’s a procrastinator, too, I know this. It irked me, though, that he wasn’t waiting for me when I got home. I just felt a little bummed out because I really haven’t seen much of him all week, and I wanted to spend some time with him, cuddled on the couch while watching Gilmore Girls. I’ve almost felt like roommates rather than Husband and wife.
Needless to say, I was mad at him for mostly stupid reasons … but with both of us stressed out of our minds (a recent death on his side of the family plus school and work), we tend to take it out on each other. Last night, we sat up until nearly 5am, talking. It was mostly back and forth, but in the end, I think it made us both feel slightly better to vent.
For the most part, I don’t discuss negative moments in our relationship, but sometimes, I think it’s necessary. We all have those moments. It doesn’t make us love each other any less; what proves that is the fact that we stick through it, and after it’s all said in done, we cuddle in bed together for the night, holding each other’s hand.
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I know what you mean. Sometimes things are so hard because of both of your stress but you just have to wait it out and things turn around. I’m hoping my relationship turns around soon, so hard when my health is getting worse.
I think that things will be better for you when you get back to normal hours.
No relationship is w/o struggles. It’s the tough times that makes the relationship stronger.
It amazes me that anyone who knows you might have a problem with or be skeptical about the fact that you married so young when you show such incredible maturity about your marriage.
I hope things start calming down for you soon!
I love this post- this is how I’ve been feeling recently. School piling up, running home after work to try and get things done… it’s totally exhausting. I’m glad that you guys are working through it together. It’s the only way to do it.
If you need to talk, be in touch- I’m right there with you =)
Good for you for being willing to be honest about these things, and more so for choosing to stay up working it out. I have been there and it is simply exhausting. But it does get easier (well, at least until you have children, but I am not there yet!).
Happy thoughts, hey. I’m sorry your stressed, but I’m glad that you and your guy are getting through it together. That’s awesome, hey.