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I love my life. Sometimes, I’m so happy with it that I wish nothing would change. I wake up with an optimistic outlook on anything and everything, and I take on each day with a smile. Then there are the times I become tired of the repetition. I grow bored with doing the same things every day–work, home, pay bills, sleep. I long for something more.
Now is one of those times.
I don’t hate where I’m at right now, but I am bored with it. I’m thankful for my job, and I’m glad that I can pay my bills. I just long for something that will allow my creative juices to flow. I want to live more and work less. I want to enjoy my classes and fully participate rather than do everything halfway. I want to find simplicity and enjoy it.
I can never decide what type of person I want to be: the simple, creative woman who enjoys cups of tea and sitting on the porch with her husband, never glancing at her watch because time isn’t important OR the woman with an office job wearing pencil skirts and drinking Starbucks every morning on her way to the office, going to meetings, and working on strict deadlines.
Of course, I want a career. I want my degree in psychology. I want to feel accomplished, and I want a career that I’m proud of. But I also want simplicity and my own Life schedule. Can I have a mixture of the two? Or must I stick to one end goal?
I know I’ll keep my current job at least until January. At some point next year, Husband and I plan on moving back to Chattanooga for school, and at that point, I’ll have the option of continuing where I’m at (but at the corporate office) OR doing something completely different (and possibly cutting hours to part-time). I’m at a crossroad, and while I have months to decide, it’s making me anxious.
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